I find so much of Melanie Desimone’s writing a comfort. She, too, is a bereaved mama, suffering with chronic health issues. I truly can’t improve on what she shares in the article below, but I CAN give my personal experience on the subject: how I miss everything about my son, and who I was before he left for Heaven.
He had a unique voice, he was witty and smart, kind and generous, but also had a wandering spirit. He understood me like no one else ever will. I guess it’s that first born child connection.
All I know is that one week without him is far too long, let alone 2 1/2 years now.
Ugh…I despise the calendar…
You might think looking at videos or listening to him sing and play his guitar would be such sweetness, but it is a double-edged sword, this sudden being without him situation.
Sometimes it gives me overwhelming pride and joy and makes me feel like he’s right here.
More so, though, it causes me deep, unfettered sorrow and angst. At least that’s the season I find myself in right now.
It’s all so very unfair.
But thankfully(or really, sadly,) we are not alone in this walk. Connecting with others who get it is paramount—let us know how we can help.