I love social media, and I despise it at the same time. It can be a positive tool for rekindling old friendships and sharing life moments with loved ones far away, but it can also be used by evil forces to make us feel “less than” or not good enough. It can also show us the past, when things may have been a bit happier or easier.
What’s on my mind, Facebook asks…
I made the mistake of looking in the mirror a bit ago.
This is no fishing expedition for compliments. I’m not gonna believe any of that today, for sure, so please don’t say I’m beautiful in both. I proudly wear my battle scars.
If you ever wonder why it seems some people age quicker, or look disheveled, or appear a little off, this is why.
Grief and trials are why.
I consider myself a woman of faith; faith in a GOD who loves me more than I can comprehend. He loves me even more than I love Him, my boys, or husband or siblings or family. I believe and trust He knows what is best.
But here I am, hanging on for dear life…here WE are…moment by moment.
THIS is what grief, stress, illness, and worry can do to a body.
Pic on left, March 2019, no filter
Pic on right, today….
The changes aren’t just physical either—our attitude and outlook are called into question daily. What will I believe today about the terrible thing that changed my life forever? Will I yield to despair and wallow in my snot and tears, or will I shed a quick tear, and push the pain down and away? Neither action is wrong! Each hour for me is a toss up, as to what the reaction and feelings will be; what memory will trigger joy or sorrow.
All we can do is the best we can do today, with what we have. Grief has to be felt, and it will last as long as it lasts. It helps to join grief support groups or to have even one other person who can relate to our current situation. Please reach out to others, and if you don’t find the care and concern you need in your immediate circle, contact us ASAP! We can guide you to group or individual settings where folks understand.
Don’t put it off.
GOD be with us all!